[05 Aug 2006|09:30pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | tanya chua: beautiful love ] wow.. its a long time since i updated my blog.. what had happened so far?? wah, i had fufilled one of my dreams of going to the HONGKONG in early july.. hahaha.. it was nearly abt a mth since i went to hk and im still suffering slight withdrawl symptoms especially i see the familiar buildings.. i MUST go again to HK next time!! its so much more happening than singapore after i have been to hk.. hahaha.. these days feeling kinda of a bit aim-less and meaningless, especially after talking to lingying, realise that actually in life should have something for us to work towards to and i have been asking myself these days what am i looking into to work towards to?? this is such a tough question that i'm still searching for an answer... i think probably it all boils down as in whether i should stay in my profession after a year's time.. after talking to huixia, it appears that i have become quite jaded and indecisive whether i should remain in this line... and i don't wanna give up so soon as in after 2 years, i go into another line... but im also asking myself why i should be in this line in the first place? *ponders* ---> is it to help ppl? is it to fufill my personal agenda of feeling happy to be useful for the underprivileged? or is it to be different, and not engage in a normal office kind of job.. hmmmm.. in the past i would easily say im in this line to HELP AS MANY PPL AS I CAN.. but after working for a year, suddenly you would realise your 2 hands is quite tied up and limited to help as many ppl as you can... and finally touch on the pay issue, one qn i must ask myself is whether i would be satisfied with the amount of pay that im having in 5 years time and especially seeing my friends in a different league.. materialistically its pretty hard to comfort yourself and the instrinic value of the job can run out at times... sigh.. guess it seems like after typing so much, im still at a loss... i think my GOAL now for myself is to find MEANING in my working life.. on a lighter note, i've been catching singapore idol on and off and i must say i LIKE JON LEONG! hahaha.. i promise myself that if he goes into top 2, i would give one vote to him! hahaha.. GO JON LEONG! 1 comment|post comment

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